If I could bottle it I would....

I was sick for about 36 hours. But in the midst of all of it...I still had this powerful laugh to raise my spirits:)

Feeling sorry for myself today

I hate that I don't have a single video of Evan as a baby. Yes I have pictures, but I can't recall the sound of his baby voice. I feel like everyday I'm watching my baby slip more and more away. I love the little man that he is growing into...but I still mourn the loss of the baby he was. Maybe I'm just feeling old and emotional today. I wish I could turn back time and do things so much better for Evan. I feel like he got such a bum deal being the firstborn. I don't have a real good idea how to be a great Mom now...it was even worse 14 years ago! What I wouldn't give if I could take the things that I've learned and have a redo!!

What an incredible day today has been!! I have so much joy and love in my life. I know it's easy to lose sight of that during the trying times...but I am committed to reclaiming that joy. We spent some fun time in the pool. Such a blessing..it is FAR too hot outside to enjoy without the water. We stayed in until poor little Liam started to dose in his floaty. Had great food (complete with strawberry shortcakes), and enjoyed being a family.

But as the day draws to a close, I am reminded again what the day is truly about. I am so thankful to not only our Armed Men and Women...but especially to their wives, husbands and families that are also making the biggest sacrifice for my freedom. Happy Independence Day!! Or as one British man today said "Happy Day of Colonial Ingratitude". hilarious!!